It's Possible This Isn't A Healthy Relationship by psycho-magic-mouse, literature
Literature
It's Possible This Isn't A Healthy Relationship
You’re the poison in my mouth
And I should, but I don’t want to, spit you out.
Tip my head back, swallow you down,
Bitter and sweet and you burn my throat,
Salt and copper and I start to choke.
Lick my lips to catch the drips,
Mouth stretched wide,
Eyes closed,
I let out a sigh,
We’re done for the night.
She walks as though her spine had been snapped in two
And no amount of surgery will ever set it right.
She smiles as though a slight bump would send it crashing to the floor,
A frailness, only held by those who are dying,
Or maybe, those who are already dead.
Because yes there is many types of death,
Death of the body and death of the soul.
Death of the body being as straight forward as your boss when you are caught stealing from the register.
Death of the soul being a slow bleeding thing that cuts you while forcing you to swallow its poison;
And I can see that her soul had died a long time ago.
Maybe it was when she remembered all the times
When I was just a child
About twenty years back
I never would have thought
I would turn out like that
Or indeed like this
If I speak in the present tense
I guess I’m tense in the present
If that makes any sense
When I was at the mercy
Of the medical profession
They told me I was suffering
With clinical depression
And tapestries woven this tight
Into such an infant mind
Would be difficult to unspool
Unthread and leave behind
When I was just a boy
Around ten or so years back
I fell into a deep hole
But it felt more like a trap
I couldn’t get out of there
In fact I’m stuck here still
And all anyone can do
Is to prescribe anot
Drip Drop, Tick Tock by Sapphire-Rose15, literature
Literature
Drip Drop, Tick Tock
Drip Drop, Drip Drop
Tears are falling to the ground
Drip Drop, Drip Drop
People leaving all around
Tick Tock, Tick Tock
The clock is now counting down
Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Until you're lying face down
Drip Drop, Drip Drop
Blood flows down, make no sound
Drip Drop, Drip Drop
Pain at height, wound round and round
Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Everyone watches with no dread
Tick Tock, Tick Tock
As you lay there, bleeding and dead.
Anger, hate, feelings of despair.
Worthless degenerates whose heads are full of air.
Trash, worthless, people with no remorse.
We try and try and try, but it is useless of course.
We who are beaten down,
We who try our hardest.
The biggest hearts, the bloodiest arms.
We have the most kindness, but we are treated the worst.
Depression, Pain, the tone sounds.
Yet another night falls, our cries rebound.
The night brings terror, the dark brings fear.
We can never escape the death of which we hear.
Night is hard, our sleep is null.
Nothing we do ever brings us peace.
We curl up and cry, we curl up and die.
Regretting how we interact, how genuin
Clap your hands if you believe
That sometimes hope is a lie
But sometimes lies are better than the truth
Raise your hand if you understand
That sometimes words that need to be said
Hurt too much to voice
And a touch will have to work instead
Reach out to me if you feel
Like you're drifting
Like you're lost
Like you're broken
Take my hand if you need to
If you cannot stand on your own
If you cannot see through the darkness
Pull your hand away if you must
If you cannot trust a stranger
If you have no more faith to hold out
If you simply lack the strength to reach
And I will hold your hand instead.
I am running out of words
All those poems I flung out at a whim
Sad little stirrings I used to pretend were once feelings
Palpitations of a weak hearted boy
Hoping to stand in the shoes of a man
Dreaming of the next time I can get behind of the wheel of my car
And just aimlessly float down roads and streets
The lights of the city blending into one hell of a freak show
And once again I find myself closed off in my room
Bottling up unwanted emotions
Sealing them back behind an emotional dam that rivals hoover
And I am siting at the base
My fingers jammed knuckle deep in the cracks
Praying that I am just imagining the leaks
Leaks that spray mur
there's a war wound in my chest
that I cradle in my heart
and nurse it with parables
but,
it never,
never grows up.
sometimes I feed it vanities,
a glass of Scotch or two
but in the morning's residue
it reflects no summer truths.
there's a war wound in my chest
which sought shelter in my soul
now it lies as an attic masterpiece
for the years to unfold
the colours have aged with me
rubric to rust to puce
and this work of art upon my heart
is but
for the artist's eyes.
there's a war wound in my chest
which fell our company
but I who saw the shot and shell,
know it well indeed.
for he assigned us nameless,
no rank, no
White is the color of my afflictions,
and white is my thought;
with each and every experience -
some brown,
some gray,
some just like white,
but not quite -
the thought is fractured
and spanses of reason are distanced.
Yes, white is the color of my afflictions,
that every thought
- however perfect -
should be dispersed by a blow of wind in blue,
or a drop of sable rain,
or every red, orange, green, blue, or cyan pain.
White is the color of my afflictions,
because it is so fragile and still,
and any movement,
any sound,
any reality,
can break my afflictions
- like captives -
free.
Sometimes I have a hard time expressing myself.
I can't tell you I'm angry.
I can't speak at all.
My throat closes, my chest tightens,
My fists clench and I can't even type.
My eyes shut and the world goes red
With the light through my eyelids
And the rage in my heart.
I don't shout or scream.
I don't flinch.
There's no angry tears,
No outward signs.
And when I open my eyes again,
You see them as blue.
But I'm still seeing red.